Alone

I think my personality warrants me time to myself.

I do better on my own, away from the crowd, the drama.

I am in an odd mood. I don't know why. perhaps it stems from my overall emotions the last couple weeks. Seeing the school year come to an end, watching my roommate moving out yesterday, and knowing that i somehow seem to be apart from it all.

It's just a weird feeling...that I simply don't belong here anymore. I don't feel as if i "fit."

This might only be because i am listening to the kind of music that merits this kind of thinking. Or that my brain is fried from homework and studying and the portfolio that is due Monday at 10.

Or it could be the short phone conversation i had with an old friend on thursday night that made me think about where i was headed.

or perhaps its because my subconcious has been trying to tell me to take some time apart from everyone. And I finally did today. I shelled myself up in my room. Yeah, i studied, i talked to matt. But it was nice, to be apart from the world for a little while, and forget all those distractions.

And now, I simply feel hollow. And I don't know how to fill that void.

Only 5 days until i leave.

thank goodness.